Two secret doors in your consciousness | Session #3096
In this read, allow me to open two secret doors for you. But first a beautiful story!
The missing painting
Once there was a king who a lover of paintings. He used to collect the rarest of paintings from all over the world and display them in his kingdom. Whenever he came across an exquisite painting he would not be shy of bidding all his wealth to take possession of the painting. His collection was huge with thousands of paintings but despite that fact, the king always felt there was something missing, there was one special painting missing. He lived with this feeling of having something missing his entire life until one day he decide to end this inner dissatisfaction. So he organised a contest and asked his men to spread the word in his kingdom and beyond – to get this special painting made. The winner would be rewarded with unlimited gold and silver, if only the painting would end the Kings’ search. Creme la creme of painters tried their best hand in creating the extraordinary pieces of art, but the king remain unsatisfied.
That one missing painting remained a disturbing mystery for the king for some more years of come. Until one day, a meditator appeared in his court. He said, “I will make the painting, that is going to fulfill exactly what you are looking for, that dissatisfaction of yours will be no more. But on one strict condition!”
The kind thought for a moment, “I am offering all possible wealth for this painting, what could possibly be his condition?”
The meditator said, “While i am making this painting, you will sit down silently with your eyes closed. Do not say a word until I finish the painting. It might take a day, or several month or years. You will not break your silence until i am done. For some reason if you open your eyes in the middle, you will remain completely unsatisfied all your life. Are you ready to abide by my condition?
Tough condition! The king had no choice but to agree to the meditator. The desire to get this one missing painting made was above everything for him. So they both locked themselves in a room. No one was allowed to enter that room.
The king sat down on the floor, closed his eyes, and the painter started his work. Days, months, years passed by, no sign of the king or the meditator. People thought that these two have gone mad inside that closed room and are perhaps dead by now. No one dared to enter the room as this was kings’ ultimate wish to not let this process be disturbed at any cost.
And one day, the painter finally spoke. He asked the king to open his eyes. By now, the kings had reached to the depths of his inner silence, his face was shining with grace and there was no dissatisfaction left anymore. In front of him was a magnificent huge scenery with mountains, rivers, forests, blue skies, stars, all in one painting. He started noticing all the details of this creation. In the middle of the painting, there was one door. He asked the painter “What is this door, where is it leading to?”
The painter said, “Let’s find out!” He took the king by his hand, entered the painting, opened the door, entered the door and they both never came back.
Take a moment to contemplate about it.
For those who sit with me in meditation sessions, I try to create a painting for them. I open a new door for them in each session. They are my king, I am their painter.
What is behind that door?
Pure being, endless inner space. And meditation is the process of entering that door, entering the pure being, entering one’s’ own inner space.
Even you who is reading this right now are my king. This session is my painting and I have 2 doors for you to enter 1) the door of Egolessness 2) the door of Formlessness.
The door of egolessness
What is ego? When i asked this question to my meditators in the session, they answered with several keywords: self-pride, separation between me and the other, I, identification and so on.
In summary, from a meditators’ point-of-view, ego is identification to a false sense of ‘I’.
Another interesting question that i would like you to contemplate over is – Did you always had an ego or was there a certain point in life where your ego started to appear?
Go back to your childhood and try to remember that time when your name, description, physical and mental features did not mean anything to you. That time when you were discovering the world with your eyes wide open looking at everything for the very first time. Did you have an ego at that time?
Gradually over time with education, culture, society and all other ways of learning, gathering knowledge and experiences, you developed a sense of ‘I’. This ‘I’ started to narrate its want, likes, dislikes, right and wrongs, and the whole gamut of problems arose in fulfilling the ‘I’.
Here I am not saying that ego is all bad. It does have a utilitarian place in this world. We are always functioning in ways that are both good and bad at the same time and there is a use of ego as well. Otherwise who knows how we would function collectively but please remember that there was a time when you were egoless.
Lets go deeper.
The door of formlessness
The second door is beyond any form, beyond which there is pure consciousness. Use this contemplation to understand formlessness and pass through that door:
If you go back in time to when you were in your mother’s womb. You existed as a bunch of cells. If you follow that process in reverse order, you existed as even one merged cell that multiplied into several cells. Go back further until the moment of conception. From a lump of cells, to a few cells, to two cells merging. And ask yourself this question, “Did I existed before the moment of conception?”
In deep meditative silence, the answer is clear – a realisation that those cells are the form and that something existed with or without the form. We can call it spirit or pure consciousness or something else. That formless existence is eternal. The perishable form is made of matter that we know as our body.
In yogic traditions, there is a precise technique to expand consciousness from form to formlessness. For example, you are reading this text right now, your awareness is with the flow of words. While you keep your awareness on reading, if you can visualise yourself doing that from a distance at the same time, there is a sudden shift in consciousness. Isn’t it!
This added awareness of oneself in action while being in action create a very powerful state of awareness over time. Gurdjieff used to call it ‘Self-remembering’ and many other spiritual mystics gave it their own names.
- Sit comfortably and close your eyes. Inhale and exhale through the nose, maintain a natural flow of breath. (2-3 mins)
- Give another minute or so until your body is settled, your mind is starting to calm down and your awareness is turned inwards.
- Disidentification (10 mins): As your awareness stabilizes, whatever comes in front of your awareness, remain indifferent to it. Thoughts, ideas, plans, noises, smells, anything that shows up in your awareness, let that come and go without getting involved.
- If you need something to hold onto, keep your awareness focused at your breath. After few minutes, try to let go of that as well.
- The more disidentified you remain, the more you will pass through egolessness.
- Expanding consciousness (10 mins): Add the awareness of yourself sitting and meditating. Let this awareness expand and include everything in it.
- Leave all effort and sit in silent awareness (10 mins)
- Awareness back to the body, and gently open your eyes.
Level: Intermediate – Advanced
Time: 30+ mins
Type: Awareness, contemplation, visualisation
Note: Based on the meditation session (#3096), led by Dhyanse in Switzerland on 14th Jan 2019.
Watch full session on Youtube: https://youtu.be/FLEEt2l-ze0
Read Dhyanse’ book: 10 Bulls of Meditation amzn.to/2Y5efHc